A Prayer about the Orphan in Me
I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. (John 14:18) But when the set time had fully come, God sent his Son, born of a woman, born under the law, to redeem those under the law, that we might receive adoption to son ship. Because you are his sons, God sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out, “Abba, Father.” So you are no longer a slave, but God’s child; and since you are his child, God has made you also an heir. (Gal. 4:4–7 NIV)
Lord Jesus, thank you for this incredible promise, your pledge to love us with filial affection, far beyond our imaging. There are moments, days, even much longer stretches when I begin to think, feel, and live as though I am an orphan— as though I don’t really have a heavenly Father who loves me deeply and is involved in every detail of my life.
When I get sucked back into this downward spiral, my spirit shrinks and my fears enlarge. My peace says, “Bye-bye,” and my control issues say, “We’re back!” I get defensive and I go on the offensive. In short, I’m no fun to be around. Instead of the aroma of the gospel, I start exuding the smell of a waif.
Jesus, enough of my generalities: I repent. I smell like a dirty orphan this morning. I wish there was a button I could push or a switch I could throw and all of a sudden “snap out of it.” There is no such shortcut, but there is repentant faith, which is better by far.
Jesus, you haven’t left me as an orphan. You came to us through the gift of the Holy Spirit— the Spirit of Adoption— the very Spirit by which we now cry, “Abba, Father!” You never have and never will abandon me. Right now, I abandon myself to you and to the resources of the gospel. And as one hour gives way to the next, may the aroma of the gospel override the smell of a waif. I pray in your loving name, with longing expectancy.
Amen.